Luckiest Girl Alive was released in May 2015, but I only got around to reading it in December. If I had to choose, I’d say it was my favorite book from last year.
Luckiest Girl Alive is told through the unlikable protagonist, TifAni FaNelli. (Yes, the caps are supposed to be like that.) The novel opens with her adding items to her wedding registry, while thinking about stabbing her fiancé.
The Manhattan backdrop and her job at a women’s magazine show the pressures and fun elements of big city living (kudos to Knoll for the Physique 57 shout out). But her desperate need to keep her crafted life in tact pushes the story, with a fierceness that kept me turning the pages, fast.
Knoll writes about the darker, vicious side to women. And while Ani has been through serious tragedies, (which Knoll reveals through flashbacks in alternating chapters) Ani never lets herself float in the default setting of self-pity. Instead, she transforms herself into a woman she thinks others might envy—the job and the well to do fiancé are all symbols of what she thinks she wants.
But a Kate could never give Luke what I give him, and that’s the edge. Rusted and bacteria ridden, I’m the blade that nicks at the perfectly hemmed seams of Luke’s star quarterback life, threatening to shred it apart. And he likes that threat, the possibility of my danger. But he doesn’t really want to see what I can do, the ragged holes I can open. I’ve spent most of our relationship scratching the surface, experimenting with the pressure, how much is too much before I draw blood? I’m getting tired.
There isn’t a correct feeling to have about her, because she is the ultimate anti-heroine. Similar to Don Draper or Frank Underwood, I rooted for her even though not many would in real life.
Ani’s story is what it would be like if an average Jersey shore girl tried to step into Lauren Santo Domingo’s world. The attempt would require meticulous observation, patience, and preparation. Ani has been studying for years.
The recommendation is true. If you liked Gillian Flynn, you’ll love Luckiest Girl Alive. Jessica Knoll is a voice I will be following…forever?
It was a perfect edgy read for my dark little heart.